#23

i have a hard time coming to grips with rosemary because rose and mary dont have anything to do with it and i like rosemary better than i like roses or any mary that ive ever known so what can i do except be very tired and just try to exhaust my brain to the point where i can fall asleep even though these troublesome thoughts are still bubbling for me but i guess that i am not the important one in this equation because i wouldnt even have these thoughts if it wasnt for the herb that reminds me of thanksgiving and my dad and sister and me sitting around the kitchen table picking all sorts of herbs and putting them into a white ceramic bowl with apilco written in small grey letters on the bottom and i saw that my uncle has the same exact glasses that my family has and by glasses i of course mean cups because we call them glasses in my house even though glasses are also a kind of eyewear that i have been fortunate enough to be able to avoid having to wear thus far in my troubled life but right now i am honestly having some trouble seeing because my vision is blurred while i try to follow my pen with my eyes but i try not to think about it because admitting that your body is breaking down can lead to rapid detioration of mental abilities and a chronic foul mood