#57

sitting in an airport in sacramento with a queasy uneasy feeling in my stomach from too much doubt and life and dissatisfaction and its about goddam time i change it up and do something about my personality which is not one that i like or would like to hang out with so i need to change and be the kind of friend that attracts friends and be the generous kind of chum ive always wanted to be because if not now when and ive got to spread my love to those people i really love and try to develop some new relationships because the last time i made a good friend was in new york which is too long ago and i should give aaron a call and start really inviting people out to do things because thats what it takes to be a real friend and my motto from now on is that i have to actively pursue friendships and be the guy that unites and that everybody knows because that is who ive always respected and always wanted to be because its the guy who always has a smile on his face and a twinkle in his eye because being around people is its own reward and well worth the little effort it takes to get the ball rolling