#120

i would like it to be publicly known that i am pathologically unable to turn down an invitation if i dont have a conflict so my schedule gets eaten up by a string of engagements half of which are joyful occurrences and the other half teeth pulling nail biting exercises in boredom endurance with people i dont really know or whose company i dont enjoy so since i have diagnosed my illness i would like everyone whose company i dont enjoy to quit inviting me to do things with them and not just for my sake but for all yours as well because if i am finding our conversations excruciatingly laborious you cant be having a good time i mean i get so bored i am incapable of making the least interesting comment and certainly nothing witty or astute escapes from my mouth in these situations because my mind turns soft and the blood supply gets cut off and a keen depression concentrates into a point between my eyes and gives me a migraine of hopelessness which certainly must show on my face so in conclusion please just stop inviting me out and there will be more hope in the world and children of all colors will be fucking in the streets in the morning