#167

a moment an instant a point in time is my only existence is my only experience i have never and will never be except for in a moment unappreciated and unnoticed and defiled and rotten even before it passes people have told me to live in the moment or live for the moment but i cant because the moment is real and i live for more than real i live for divine and transcendent and perfect which exists only in my distorted memories and imagination but certainly not in the here and now i have never appreciated a point in time as i lay suspended in it but i have fully loved a moment looking back and i have reached levels of excitement bordering on hilarity anticipating moments to come but the best i have ever done with an instant is to become unconscious of pasts and futures but that happens almost faster than an instant and fades away within the same instant because time cannot even be considered in such a thought or such a thought be contained in time or ever placed on a timeline because the timeline doesnt exist in the thought and a moment only exists in a linear representation of time which may not be linear at all though the human experience of it is certainly so but in any case and despite it all i exist in my subjective timeline and waste moment after moment after moment after moment